tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-179512502024-03-13T13:23:03.398+01:00we're going nowhere and it's nowculmea...(fără semnul exclamării)prestidigitatorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12824161374682576370noreply@blogger.comBlogger390125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17951250.post-48634143629469520882014-01-28T23:45:00.000+01:002014-01-28T23:45:06.195+01:00mummery<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">a mummery is a ridiculous ceremonial. i know this because i once wrote the word in a book and much later i ran into it again and even though i wasn't sure that's what it meant i believed it anyway. i can say it 10 times and nothing will happen besides the fact of having said it, it will maybe seem i am saying something else, the 5th or 6th time i say it, i could confuse myself, but most likely even that would pass without serious consequences. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i find most social interactions to be forms of mummery and i laugh at them once everyone has gone home or once i have returned home or if the lights go off. sometimes i laugh at them on the way home. or on the way to somewhere else. but i laugh, i really laugh. once we said goodbye i look left and i look right and i cross laugh. i laugh at them by myself because most other people take them very seriously. except f. we can draw the curtain and laugh together. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">we've got a lot to laugh about together, so i'll be doing that for a while. my stomach is full of laughter. it has contaminated my head, my hair is full of grins, my eyes are full of tears, salty watery smiles digging into my cheeks like that one drip spoiling the exterior of a glass forever (or less), rendering it unusable until further washing, my neck and shoulders, dancing together to some forest rhymes, foyer rhythms, everything comes together like neighbours from all floors in the elevator, what a thrill in the stomach laughter is, and so are elevator rides, sometimes, and then there's my ears, awake, hearing me out more then ever, taking laughter in stereo, they are good sports, they pay so much attention, and my breath, gushes of laughter from my stomach, it's all there is, i think it's all love. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i keep my cheeks dirty and my eyes where i can't see them and my laughter in my stomach, expanding, expanding, like the porridge in the story, taking over the village, et caetera. it took so long to realise there's no fear in laughter. </span></div>
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prestidigitatorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12824161374682576370noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17951250.post-44689257125800243792013-11-23T14:37:00.000+01:002013-11-23T14:38:51.703+01:00another november<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">sometimes i think there is no pain - but that's when i know the pain is just too overwhelming - when aloneness is no longer the disease, but the cure.</span><br />
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prestidigitatorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12824161374682576370noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17951250.post-2140542469326707002013-07-13T22:12:00.000+02:002013-07-13T22:12:00.041+02:00long letters are not a gift horse<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">being alone is great. i say this after six days of minimal social interaction, limited to strangers who work in shops i visit and assume i speak their language (i can say no-thanks and yes-thanks but to every other sentence addressed to me i simply nod or grin). what i felt and what i didn't say (because i didn't have to whom) after one day was quite different. it played in the league of sorrow and sadness and pitiful misery and it made friends with the daddy longlegs that lives under the living room couch. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">but then, oh, it got better, i started to feel the rhythm of this alone-ness and dance to it and everything fell into place like the 1500 puzzle pieces that are lying on the floor <i>would</i>, with the difference that they would only turn into an ugly (or beautifully kitsch, if you prefer) picture of three girls on a motorcycle and my newfound sense of being wouldn't. it won't. really. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i had many notions spinning around in my head and sometimes, usually after a meal i had assembled based on want and consumed less speedily than when in company (!), they would slow down and i would be able to grab onto a thread and weave them into long emails, cracked-open-heart-and-soul emails, bizzaro-mackrel-and-cheese emails, spur of the moment emails, delicate-30-degrees-wash emails to people i felt tuna with. it's good to let it out in writing. it's soothing like camomille on pinkeye. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">unless you wish for a reply.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">then the pinkeye is back. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">camomille never happened. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i read of a man once who kept a list of all the people who didnt reply to his letters and when he was fed up with waiting (years went by, the man was patient!) he killed all of them (he was also mentally unstable!) using the pen he wrote all his letters with on the same day even though they lived in different countries and some of them where out of their houses at parties or yoga lessons. but he did it. and what i learned from him is that to avoid breaking a good pen one must refrain from writing to people who can't reciprocate. (i learned this word in first grade from my deskmate who was surely a precocious little fella and it has since left a profound mark on all my human interactions - that's perhaps why i nod and grin sometimes to people whose words i don't understand. so they don't feel terribly alone because their sounds go right through me and float off the surface of the earth into space where no one can hear anything because there isn't any sound because the molecules are fickle out there.) </span><br />
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<br />prestidigitatorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12824161374682576370noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17951250.post-68886022956187128292013-07-01T21:06:00.003+02:002013-07-01T21:07:42.151+02:00why not sneeze, Patti Eadielisan?<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">imagine you suddenly feel removed from yourself</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">you can't</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">it's senseless</span><br />
<span style="color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">why it happened to me i don't know</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i wasnt suddenly removed, i just suddenly felt as if i was removed from myself</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and always had been</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and never noticed</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">as if i wasnt sure i was living </span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">or not living </span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">guessing i must at least be alive</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222;">this uncertainty means she has too much time on her hands, said the gentleman who was just passing by walking his past, tense</span></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i do</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i have open time on my hands</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">it's so heavy i need to sit it on my lap</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">slap slap</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">all this open time that lets me look into it -</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">that lets me look into things</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">that lets me look into me</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">this i dont-know-who i've seen a million times</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">scary like porky pig's dog-canary </span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">(not scary-scary but more like "why don't you do something? - well, i can't tell you"</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">"can you sing? - no, but i do" "please, stop - please, start")</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="text-align: center;">I've attended a strange party for the last 6 months. </span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 16px;">life at one of its most interesting, me at my most aware. fulcrum, </span><em style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-style: normal; line-height: 16px;">panem et</em><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 16px;"> circenses, mostly without the big colorful posters or the gigantic circus tent. grind grind grind, not teeth, but sprockets, or the pen to the paper. </span>prestidigitatorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12824161374682576370noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17951250.post-40997099117564022302012-07-20T12:43:00.000+02:002012-07-20T12:43:43.869+02:00occam, thanks for your razor<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">when you get a painful vaccine in your arm the world, which was waiting for this particular event to happen, goes mad: everyone seems to hit you right there, where it hurts, like they had been always planning for it. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">but it's not some conspiracy, <span style="background-color: white;">it's all about where you put your attention or where your awareness is (temporarily) higher. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white;">and as </span><span style="background-color: white;">my senses are usually as acute as apendicitis just before the (vermiform) appendix bursts, everything that happens around me contains some message, some reference to my mood and my feelings. especially in times of melancholy, the universe seems to get me. (with a careful insertion of mockery laughter)</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">it's surely a self-preservation mechanism for the self-centric eccentrics, who know they are meaningless in the grand scheme but muster dimwit hope that, somehow, they're not. </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">so, ok, then the radio is not really sympathizing with me, but i don't dislike living by means of this magical delusion.</span></span></div>prestidigitatorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12824161374682576370noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17951250.post-1934247688727154272012-07-10T23:55:00.002+02:002012-07-10T23:55:40.540+02:00summer bummer<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">good i'm going back to rain. very good. how quickly we forget.</span></div>prestidigitatorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12824161374682576370noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17951250.post-53787169655171395232012-07-10T23:42:00.000+02:002012-07-10T23:42:59.045+02:00initials B.B. and M.E.<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="color: #353535;"><span style="font-size: 11.818181991577148px; line-height: 11.818181991577148px;">What do Mircea Eliade and Brigitte Bardot have in common? is a question anyone with a little bit of time and a little bit of imagination can answer, because it is obscure and unimportant so you can make up anything you want for the sake of conversation. And it's the kind of thing you could easily talk about at 42 degrees celsius. Especially inside your head, using different voices and maybe even different accents. </span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #353535; font-size: 11.818181991577148px; line-height: 11.818181991577148px;">But how B.B. and M.E. visited me on the same day to deliver an important message is something else. Or wait, no, it's just what I said above.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #353535; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 12px;">And on the dusty train platform, looking at the people running like mad to get on the train that wouldn't leave for another 15 minutes, this idea that we only replace one love with another, mechanically, meaninglessly, brainlessly (but not without hope), seemed extremely revolutionary, even intelligent. I don't consider it such anymore, however, it's the kind of awakening that can never come post-priori simply because we give too much meaning to our actions and attractions.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">this sample of bad filming is to be looked at with wonder, for it is not the bad filming that matters, but something else. the man in the center, ok, in the blurred center, the stiffer one, is lou reed. himself! he's 70, has big biceps, he's on tour (or was?) and it was great to hear him and see him (stand unbendable) from the back of the room, the best place to be at so the illusion created by his ultra reedish voice would not have to endure even the slightest doubt at seeing his new (sic!) exterior. it's not shallow, or it is, but it is only because i want to preserve him in my mind <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5lS_hNUhGnk">like this</a>.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">but you see the woman in the up right corner? she's called joan as policewoman, and she opened for lou reed. she must've thought of herself as quite the entertainer, cause she spoke between each song (and there were many, each like a little drop of poison), in a soft porn voice, like a housewife who works part time for some erotic hotline, her first few songs sounded like the mating sounds of some species of chicken,<span style="background-color: white;"> mumbled words were only hiding up the ineptitude of the lyrics, some of which went like this: <span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 15px;"><i>you'll start your engines like a virgin as long as you jump the ride</i> </span></span><span style="background-color: white;">or</span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 15px;"><span style="font-size: 12px;"> </span><i style="font-size: 12px;">don't you know i'm your woman and you are my man? </i>or </span><i><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 15px;">I just want your love / </span><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 15px;">I want it now / </span></i><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 15px;"><i>I want your face inside of my mind</i> [...] </span><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 15px;"><i>‘Cause I don't come with a manual. / </i></span><i style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 15px;">No, I lost it long ago.</i></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">yes, she has definitely lost her manual, her manual ability to slap herself off stage because she is embarrassing, yet somehow, there is always an amusing dimension to a total lack of personal sense of the ridiculous. </span></span><span style="font-family: tahoma, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 15px;"><br /></span></span></div>prestidigitatorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12824161374682576370noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17951250.post-12948912860019966202012-06-17T16:22:00.000+02:002012-06-17T16:22:40.904+02:00but she breaks just like a little girl<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">“It’s spring fever. That is what the name of it is. And when you’ve got it, you want — oh, you don’t quite know what it is you do want, but it just fairly makes your heart ache, you want it so!” </span></span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Mark Twain</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">sometimes the disease fits the symptoms so you accept the diagnosis. sometimes the observations fit the theory so you think you're validating it. when i get tired of being wrong, when i get tired of uncertainty or indecision, something. yes. something. </span></span></div>
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here came spring, real spring, warm spring, may spring, oh yes, and together with its friend the wind it spreads joy or pollen, dust and little particles that make you sneeze, and what better way to wake up than by expelling stuff out your nose and perhaps mouth at speeds ranging between 150 and 900 km/h, i heard this somewhere, such crudeness the morning has when you've got a jet plane coming out of your nose, maybe a race car if not a jet plane, and then it really becomes a race, first sneeze-car in pole position followed closely by another one and another one, you should aim at the window, so they go away and race till they dissolve, or else, if your head is still facing the pillow, they'll be stuck there, in your pillow, racing all day but mostly all night, every night, and you'll hear vruuuuum! vrrrruuuum! when you try to go to sleep and your dreams will become more vibrant, like sitting in a 4d cinema, yuck, yuck like when cheese ball snacks fall into your bag and you can never pick up all of them and they stick together (wouldn't it be so great to be able to expel them like pollen out of your nose?), no, no thank you, welcome, spring, but don't sneeze on my pillow.</div>
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<span class="s1"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">beat it, paulie, </span></span></div>
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<span class="s1"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">her breast hid away,</span></span></div>
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<span class="s1"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">beat it, i don’t want you around,</span></span></div>
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<span class="s1"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">edgar, listen,</span></span></div>
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<span class="s1"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">(such a funny name for a breast, edgar)</span></span></div>
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<span class="s1"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">listen, edgar, </span></span></div>
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<span class="s1"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">my name isn’t paulie, </span></span></div>
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<span class="s1"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i don’t have a name, </span></span></div>
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<span class="s1"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">but you can call me paulie,</span></span></div>
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<span class="s1"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I am really you,</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i had done something bad, but not bad bad, more like kid bad, and all these people at this horrible dinner party were playing games in twos and purposely left me out. so i started playing with this cat they had in the house and they were paranoid about it getting killed, and the cat, to piss me off and get me into more trouble, opened the back door somehow, and there, right there, waiting, was this big fat cat who hated her the most and wanted to annihilate it. they started this massive chase and at times cat fur would fly here and there, and i screamed and everyone screamed back at me thinking i'm the boy who cries wolf to take them away from the game, especially this boy i had come with, he was being so silly. but the cat was saved so we left, and outside, on what looked like a building site, some woman asked from afar for directions and i realized we were in india. then i got contact lenses and i was on a bicycle and i couldn't see so well. </span></div>prestidigitatorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12824161374682576370noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17951250.post-71604127414232045982012-03-06T20:59:00.000+01:002012-03-06T21:50:39.359+01:00i am as old as i am young<br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">(gluta wasnt asian. she uses chopsticks because i cant draw forks.)</span></div>
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</div>prestidigitatorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12824161374682576370noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17951250.post-67027374927456866642012-02-22T13:38:00.000+01:002012-02-22T13:38:00.657+01:00i am a haunted home without a house<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">my mother says parents can give you everything, except for luck. i dont know what luck really is, it's not reliable like sense of humor, it's not even transient like good looks, </span><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i really can't say anything certain about it, but it </span><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">seems to be nice odds, odds in your favor. shifting probability. but then again, everything seems to be just chance. probability. odds. timing.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">i did feel </span><i style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">lucky</i><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> many times in my life, like last night, in my dream, when a plane crashed into the building i was going to go into if only i would have found my lipstick in time. i didnt find it, so i didnt go in, so i didnt get squashed by this enormous plane (and i dont even use lipstick in waking life). i dont feel </span><i style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">lucky</i><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> that i have these fears of not finding a place to stay in time (i will be roomless, roofless, rootless from march 1st) turn into plane attacks in my dreams, but i dont feel </span><i style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">unlucky</i><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">, either. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">therefore i will become ruthless and let go of worries that i wont find a place and whatever happens will happen anyway. and if it will be terrible, i guess it will build character?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">yesterday morning, very morning, as i was walking towards the train that would take me to the cinema(s), i noticed my shoe lace was untied. i looked at it and looked away within the same second, simply because after my quick evaluation of the gravity of the situation i have concluded that it wasn't going to necessitate a pit stop.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">but all of a sudden a man walking towards me spotted my weakness, stopped, looked me straight in the eye and zoomed in on his own face (like the nemesis of a ninja would) and then made this very strange, almost bird-like whistling noise, and in 3 seconds i was completely surrounded by all the random citizens who happened to be in the streets at that moment and recognized this man's cry. even mothers with their children came, but of course some of them were covering the young one's eyes.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">what appeared to be like the oldest man in the circle approached, closing the circle behind him, and said to me in a german for idiots, nein, nein, nicht richtig, schliessen die muntzer oder nein gezucht! i am not an idiot so i didnt understand that, but i saw him pointing at my untied shoe lace so i said schuldigung, tucked it in my shoe and wanted to go about my way, beginning to become aware of the disturbance my shoe lace has caused them. but they wouldnt let me. one of the children who was allowed to look started crying when he saw how i tried to cheat by tucking it in, so his mother had to pull him away from the circle which got a bit more tighter around me. then i remembered the note, the note was going to save me, i pulled it out and handed it to the old man. he read it, sneered and whistled. everyone went away immediately and i was free.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">ok, i must confess i might have distorted facts a little bit. it wasnt a note at all, it was my festival badge. no, my passport. no, my copenhagen resident's card. i can't well remember, it was all so extremely strange and incredibly fast.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">nate (i mean nature, but we're on nickname terms), in all its generosity, has not bestowed upon me an essential thing, essential only to my current and most exciting interest, and not essential in loose terms. yes. cinema. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">so this generous nate gave me a nest of angry knees and every time i'm in a cinema they go wild. negotiations aren't going well. but everything else is.</span></div>
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<br /></div>prestidigitatorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12824161374682576370noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17951250.post-3483766660132504472012-02-09T14:27:00.000+01:002012-02-09T14:28:43.100+01:00Ordnung muß sein?<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">upon arrival in berlin, i met a trickster, the one you are warned about on the side of ticket vending machines in U train stations. he wanted to sell me a ticket. i caught his eye and his accent and asked him if he was romanian which indeed he was. as we started speaking the mother tongue, he didnt want to sell me the ticket anymore, but instead was very helpful with my purchase, giving me directions and generally being very nice. then, on the train, this romanian trumpet duo came in the cart i was in and started playing. we chatted a bit and i thought: berlin is really the place to be romanian. :></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">this festival is so big, it's scary. people with accreditation queue from 6 am in front of the festival center to pick up tickets, and it opens at 8.30. i got a tattoo on my hand that will be my mantra for these 10 days, take it as it comes. also because there are so many movies and so many people that it's easiest to just be relaxed about it and open to whatever comes my way. and in postdamer platz, everything comes your way. including trains. which is the only thing you must avoid direct collision with.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">to illustrate: yesterday, on festival day -1, going to pick up my accreditation and getting lost on the way, i saw a man with a red berlinale bag and asked him for help. he was going my way so we walked and talked together. he showed me the movie he produced and told me to check it out. we said goodbye and i knew i was ready for anything to happen. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and there's a funny coincidence: the travel pass for the period i am here costs as much as the festival pass, and it is only right because the train is a sort of film apparatus and every time i've been on it i've seen scenes of amazing natural beauty with oh so interesting characters. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">when they say there's a high demand for jobs out there, they aren't kidding. what kind of jobs we're talking about is always a bit in the mist, but i had the privilege of enlightenment tonight, when going for an interview for a student job as a waitress at an italian restaurant in copenhagen. this restaurant owner said, aa, vieni, we eat, we drink, we talk, in italy, we take it easy, so i think, well, ok, in italy they take it easy so i go, we eat, we drink and the he says ok, now we go to my office. and i think, well, that's odd. but i keep cool and think hey, maybe i don't know enough about italian culture or customs. in his office, i notice with irony that he has a security camera and he's basically watching himself, so i ask, with much unnecessary naivety, why?, so he takes this cloth and covers it up. so i say no, no, not at all what i meant. so i think ok, there it is, the worst case scenario unfolding right under my now-like-cocker-spaniel eyes. he keeps talking about how there are so many romanians and bulgarians wanting this job, oh, and the tips, haha, they make more than me, these waiters, haha, and then he stands up and touches my hair and says well, i love-a your-a haircut and touches my shoulder in this hey-i'm-disgusting-and-pathetic-but-i-own-the-restaurant-you-want-to-work-in. so i figure it's really time to split and i say, i'm here only for the waitress job. then i kicked him in the groin and walked out, knocking a chair down on my way, in a successful attempt of showing how i felt about it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">and some say, a job is a job. well, fuh-get about it! </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">it's raining rain and also falling snow. simultaneously. and it's huge snow flakes. as big as the toilet seat. and just like the toilet seat in a house with boys, they will never settle. sit down. stay down. go north of logic and you'll find boys are to be blamed for the lack of snow in this case. go north of korea and you'll find american imperialists to be blamed for the same. this proves nothing. disproves nothing. except, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">my mother's name is rodica. the accent falls on the second (!!) syllable. it is such a romanian name, that if we had ever thought to invent some national heroine she would have been called, undoubtedly, rodica. (ada milea knew this, too.) it's funny how, in the many years of being aware of both her name and the word erotic, i never thought of the similarity. till one day, f. said "i forgot your mother's name again". so i said "it's rodica". so he said "can i call her erotica? like this i can remember". so i said, well, nevermind, i probably said something less interesting. i should've stopped at the previous line, shouldn't i?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">boy: </span><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">or woman!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">boy: </span><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">or girl!</span></div>
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