Friday, May 14, 2010

i was born yesterday

you know what's the one thing i've thought of the most during my entire life but know the least about? guess. please. take a wild guess. a domestic guess, even.

it's love. i knew you wouldn't even try to guess. but you could've guessed, since i'm sure it's the thing you thought about the most, too. even if you're a guy. or a circus midget.

and one of the things that bothers me the most is that i noticed not even experience helps me in the learning process. love is like that huge magnet we should use on our A/C meter, it screws with everything, reseting it or just making it go haywire. but unlike the blessed magnet, it does not give you access to fresh, cool air, for free. it takes it away from you.

i'm done with the metaphors. i just want to say that when it comes to love, i was born yesterday. and so were you.

will we ever admit we know nothing about it? that it comes and goes as it pleases, that it makes fools of us, that even when we think we couldn't be more in love we still have days, hours, seconds of disbelief and doubt, that we may see love where there isn't any and fail to see it where it is, that it controls us and yet is still, for most of us, a sense of purpose and freedom?

look, i might have been born yesterday, but i stayed up all night.
so, as i see it, there's only one way to go about it. admit you know nothing and just get in for the ride.

“If you aren't in over your head, how do you know how tall you are?” 

-t.s. eliot